Thursday, October 15, 2009
Post Promo Period
I thought that after promos, I already have overcame the difficulty and the hardwork of mugging and worrying. However the promos was just a checkpoint... There is one more thing that is more challenging which is PW. Everyday we have been rushing out reports, doing out the slides. Its not exactly the kind of feelings that we are supposed to feel after a major examination. All the Stress are back : worrying, thinking too much and fear, especially when our teacher said that we were in high risk of failing. The pressure is just too intense.Life is full of checkpoints that we have to overcome...
However, one thing that is really very complicating would be human relationships. Be it friendship, kinship, colleague-ship, BGR. Its all very complicating and cause a lot of sadness for us. I dont really know what to blog anymore. But i just hope that we should try not to let all these problems bother us and be happy and try to solve the problems.
Althought the fear of oral presentation, fear of pw overall and fear of getting back results is bothering me currently, but i guess i just have to cling onto hope and live on and be optimistic. After all, being optimistic is a good thing. If you are optimistic, the people around us might just be influenced and dont feel so emo about the future.
i guess its time for me to go. Ah dreadful pw... But before i go, i just hope the people around me would be more optimistic and stay happy and dont worry unduly about results :D
I LOVE MY MONKEY :D
{10:03 PM}
Sunday, August 30, 2009
Life
What is the true meaning of life?Is it about politics? Putting people down? Or is it all about competing with one and other?
Sometimes life just does not go as smoothly as we want.
Oh wells. I am just sick and tired...
I LOVE MY MONKEY :D
{5:11 PM}
Friday, July 24, 2009
Comfort Zone
After yesterday's Chinese listening compre, I learnt something new - which is to step out of my comfort zone.I guess my horizons are still very narrow, with many mental blockages.
Moreover, due to my inability to step out of my comfort zone and get down to training, i dragged the class's today PE lesson. Sorry guys. :( haha thx alot for your help, Darren and aaron and everyone else :P)
Haha, i guess i have to be off to do pw and other projects and homework le. . .
But, before that, I would like to apologise to one person.
"I am so sorry for disturbing you and for bringing you many worries. If you are here reading my blog, i would just wanna say that i am really sorry. Please forgive my childishness. If you do not like it, i guess i will not disturb you anymore."
BYE :D
I LOVE MY MONKEY :D
{6:56 PM}
Thursday, June 25, 2009
Abyss of Studying
Studying is a long and tiresome journey that all of us have to undertake. Some may find it easy, some may find it hard. To me, i believe studying helps to empower our minds, preventing it from being rusty.However in reality, i find it boring... haha.
Good luck to those who are having their common tests next week :D
" Its never too late to start studying. As long as the tests have not begun, there is still hope!"
I LOVE MY MONKEY :D
{5:43 PM}
Monday, June 15, 2009
A Long week
As the saying goes, "time flies". How true. The second week of the school holiday is gone.The second week was long and sad. It was really upsetting. There were two particular incident that i would like to blog about. On 9th june 2009, It was someone's birthday, "ya Happy birthday!", and i received a call from that someone to meet him at lavender MRT at 1pm "or" 2pm. I didnt know and i went at 1 pm. He told me he was at The Army's Market. And so i navigated my way to the road near the market. Then i called him to ask him where is he at, he said he was walking back to lavender MRT... And so i was there sweating profusely... I told myself nvm, i will just make my way back to Lavender MRT. By the time i reached there it was 2pm, i was told to wait inside the ICA building. Haha. And soon he came... I wished him a happy birthday and passed him a present... It was then i found out that he was selling some donation tickets at $10 each. And i bought one from him. He bought me a can of green tea. Oh WOW... This isnt the main part yet.
The best part was that he told me to have lunch with him on the day before. And now, he told me he had eaten. I was so upset. I went to the nearby hawker centre to eat by MYSELF. So after lunch, i went back to see him. He was there selling the tickets. I talked to him, and of course he said a little things, and there he was selling the tickets and to the point of ignoring me. I sat down at the bus stop. Soon ryan called me. Alas, somebody to talk to. And what was he doing? still selling tickets, oblivious to my presence. WHAT WAS THAT! I came all the way to see him, of course i wanted to celebrate his birthday with him la. But he treat me in this way - making me walk around, making me eat alone, making me sad. Ya thats all i got to say. I ain't sure of our friendship anymore. He should have just told me he wun be freee and we can celebrate on the other days... And NOT treating me like a dog... OH WOW, Brothers indeed... At the end, i took a long bus ride home, with many train of thoughts thronging through my dense mind... I felt that my mind is blocked, why am i so stupid to keep on trusting the very friend that keeps on disappointing me.
The next incident came on the wee hours of Sunday... I was about to sleep. Suddenly, a loud familiar voice hollered. I couldn't fall asleep. In fact, sleep was not within my reach. The voice just kept on ranting about the same old stuffs, which i was super sensitive to. Soon, it came to a breaking point when i couldnt take it. I took my handphone, i slammed open the room door and the main door and i walked out. The main few words that i said was " SHUT UP!" I just couldnt take it anymore. It has been many years. Since i was young. However i didnt left house long. I just went to walk around the staircase landing... Just feeling confused. I didnt know what to do. Then came my mum, who walked over and managed to pacify me to go back. I really didnt want to go back. I felt like immediately shifting out of the house. But, its impossible.
I know many of you would say i am foolish, why did i do that? You know what? I also didnt know why... Its just the feeling of wanting to leave the horrendous home of mine. I couldnt take it anymore. I feel very sad. Perhaps its basic human instinct, leaving at first sight of danger. Oh wow, here am i being sad, but the person who caused all these troubles wouldn feel much...
From this two incident, i learnt that i am too soft - Both mind and heart. Perhaps i need more toughening up, or just the heart of forgiveness. I dont know. I just need someone to counsel me. But i dont knw who. My closest friends were there for me. Thanks you! But still, there is just this psychological barrier that i have inside me... Will u help me?
Gone with the sad things, there were happy times too! On Sat, i went to watch "Drag me to hell" with the gang and it was an exciting time that we had! lol. It was both scary and funny at the same time! HAHA shant say more. Dont wanna be spoiler. Bleah!
Anyway its rather late le, i think i go to sleep le. Bye. Hope everyone enjoy their holidays!
I LOVE MY MONKEY :D
{3:00 AM}
Sunday, May 31, 2009
Paragon of failure
Hello readers,It has been a long time since i blog. For this i apologise. It has been a hectic jc life inundated with homework, tests etc. Generally they are not well done, and i have experience a large amount of failures and criticism... Be it academically or physically, i have been screwing up everything. I wonder how are my other friends doing. Hopefully they are much better off than me. I guess i am just having difficulties in adapting to the environment.
Also, i have many regrets. I have caused so much hurt to the others around me. I am really sorry.
But anyway now its my holidays liao. Time for me to rest "abit". Looking forward to outings and stuffs. haha.
During the school term i have also had some chance to visit some old friends. Haha, for instance during the science fair at njc. Met ryan and mok and hongzhi.
Heres some photos :
Me, ryan and shihao
Oh well... Time really flies. Really miss the times when we were still in cat high. haha.
Good luck to those taking the O lvl chinese exam this monday. Jiayous!
I LOVE MY MONKEY :D
{12:21 PM}
Saturday, March 21, 2009
Sadness???
Sadness is probably what everyone have felt before in their lives. For some, they never recover from the sadness and live in very arduous living conditions. In this tepid, unpredictable world, we all experience many ups and downs.At many times, we have to make many decisions and choices. However, one wrong decision made, might render us regrettable. haiz.... I dont feel any need for me to blog, but for all those who are sad and depressed now, lets just try to cheer up and think of happy things. ^^
I LOVE MY MONKEY :D
{11:59 AM}