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A Surge of Optimism

2011-09-04T18:55:00.002+08:00

A buddy of mine thought that I was a cheerful person. Well, perhaps appearance does not equal to character. However, I do aim to become one after hearing his comment.

I must note to myself that "Every cloud has a silver lining" and that "tough times do not last, tough men do". Hope that through every suffering and hardship that I encounter, I could become a better man with a tougher character. More importantly, I believe that I should try my very best to be optimistic and see the good of the suffering and accept the bitterness of the suffering. Also, I must find a sense of purpose in whatever I do in life, and try to exert a positive externality to the people around me. Wish me luck :)

Unknown Destination

2011-07-09T16:00:00.002+08:00

This monday I would be going to a completely new training camp. The fear and anxiety start to struck me the moment I knew I was going to be a bridge engineer. I started to think about all the possible negative events that could possibly happen to me during the course of training. But I cant... I cant continue like that... I must brace myself and regain my composure.

Child's innocence

2011-05-16T17:40:00.002+08:00

On saturday, I saw a small boy playing with his sister. He fell while running. He quickly stood up and still continued to laugh jovially. I thought to myself: "What if I could have that boy's mindset when proning on the jungle floor and getting up." Life in army would be much more cheerful. I do not know how long I will maintain this positive thought, but I believe sometimes thinking like a child may help to improve our attitude towards hardship.

Worries

2011-05-08T13:01:00.001+08:00

Worries just keep coming in, despite efforts to think positively.

Post confinement week Feelings

2011-03-25T18:07:00.004+08:00

It has been about 19 days since I stepped into home.

The feeling when the ferry reached the pier of mainland was overwhelming. Simply magnificent, relieving and exuberating.

It has been 19 days spent at there. The place looks relatively better than what I have expected and there are sufficient assisted pull-up machines and pull up bars for training, and the 2.4km running route was scenic. But I was not used to running on roads for 2.4 instead of the usual track. Nevertheless, it was a new experience and many more 2.4 practices ahead.

As for my life there as a whole, I would say it was quite depressing. I spent most of the time there sick and sitting at the sidelines. As the saying goes, I can still train another day. However, as I made new friends and found old friends there, the place became more liveable :P

I hope that I can pass my ippt soon. As we knowing hope itself is insufficient, I must really do my best in training. Wish me luck... Also, I hope to meet up with my friends and catch up with my relatives during this short break.

I wish not to be sick again in there...

2011-03-03T11:24:00.002+08:00

Where should I go?

The days ahead seems so bleak...

CNY

2011-02-03T03:57:00.002+08:00

Happy Lunar new year to everyone! Its the BUNNY year! Haha I have always find bunnies cute. I am sure someone knows.

Working life

2011-01-27T23:32:00.002+08:00

After experiencing work life for about one month plus, I can officially conclude that working can be quite boring when it is repetitive. However from my job, I realised of one major weakness of mine, which is I do not understand instructions very well... And yet another weakness is my "humanly impossible" strength...

Procrastinating

2010-12-14T19:06:00.002+08:00

Hmm, I always procrastinate on whether I should blog or not. I just don't really like voicing out my opinions and stuffs to other people. But well, I believe its more beneficial to type out our thoughts rather than keeping them all in our minds and heart. And also update friends on how have we been nowadays.

Lets talk about yesterday... Yesterday I followed aaron to buy his CNY clothings. I ended up buying nothing at there. The reasons are, firstly money, secondly I am just too fussy. Sometimes I wish I could just be decisive and make firm choices without being too 婆嘛(wishy-washy). Haha. But alas we went to Suntec Bookfest and I bought "The Lost Symbol". Speaking of which I have only read the first chapter. Maybe I am not really very interested in this genre. Oh well, but I must learn to love reading, better than just love to watch dramas.

As for today, this morning I went to meet up with my aunt, godma, cousin and his friend to go the Science Centre. It reminded me of my primary school and secondary school trips to there. First we went to eat Macs. It was very crowded and the queue was very long. Perhaps it was due to this crowd that the cashier actually wanted to give me 10 dollars change extra. :) Of course I didnt take it. It is like their 2 hours of hardwork if she was made to pay it back. After going through some of the exhibits, we went over to snow city. I guess it is good to go there during this christmas season to get the winter kind of feeling in Singapore with about -2.1 degree celcius. It was freezing cold and we didn't rent a pair of gloves. Haha! Nevermind it was a great experience sliding down the slope, though during the last slide, I fell off the tube, and slide using my body. LOL it is like only one in twenty people will have that opportunity. Lucky or not! But now my back ache haha. Guess I am just not a lucky person, even the santa taunted me.

That's how I spent the two days of slacking and fun. Hope to find more interesting activites to do and blog about. That's about it. I am signing off.

Final paper

2010-11-26T00:36:00.002+08:00

Haha finally next tuesday would be the final battle and I can finally be relieved of the horrors of A levels. Still counting down.

However I still don't feel motivated to study geog. Like now its the holidays liao that kind of feeling. I hope I can start to focus and concentrate soon.

Distractions

2010-11-17T22:55:00.002+08:00

I think I am getting distracted very easily. I can't focus on studying anymore. Perhaps its because of multiple failures that led me to stop believing in myself anymore. Just 12 more days and all these misery would be over or will it. I believe that I am overly negative and pessimistic. We are what we believe. I wonder how i am going to remove these negative thoughts and start to find more positive things to think about and succeed in life. I hope i was just being paranoid about doing my papers badly though in reality, the proportion of blanks and mistakes that I have made may make my results undesirable. I hope there is moderation so that I would not score so badly. Oh wells waiting for the ship to dock at the pier so that it would straighten. Meanwhile, I have my firms notes with me by my side now, hopefully the knowledge gained would be helpful in handling the impending exams. Wish everyone all the best for their remaining papers.

Near the end point of jc life

2010-11-03T22:05:00.002+08:00

At the frontier of the examination, I stood by the wall all by myself. I look up the sky, wanting to see the stars, but... I was disappointed I couldn't see it.

I mustered up my courage to attempt to hold the sword of wisdom yet again. I was scared of holding it because of the many past failures I have experienced. Alas. I picked it up, but realised its too heavy. It dropped from my hands. I guess I wont be able to use the sword to slay the A lvl demon. The demon. Yeah indeed. Perhaps I should wake up from my dream this instance...

Its true. I feel so helpless against the impending A lvls. I wish someone could save me. Save me from this torture...

Before exams

2010-10-25T23:18:00.002+08:00

I know I shouldn't feel fear of my exams. I know I shouldn't feel that there isn't anymore hope left. But somehow I still feel it. This kind of negative thoughts I really don't think I should or could tell anyone because I may affect their feelings and increase their stress level for the uncoming exams. Hais... I think even blogging here also cannot. So lets just try to be positive and hope all things go well...

2010-10-19T10:20:00.000+08:00

There's nothing more killing than doses of worries. At least it is for me. Sometimes I just hope to live a worry-free life. Why am I so bothered about the flow of things that are beyond my control and wisdom to alter its path.

4 More days

2010-10-11T22:54:00.002+08:00

4 more days to the official end of my jc life...

Endure!

Time is ticking

2010-10-06T22:28:00.002+08:00

Its 32 days 9 hours and 26 minutes more to A lvl geog paper 1 as I was typing this sentence. It feels as though time isn't enough. I am very afraid of not being able to perform well.

The prelim results has shown that I am not ready for A lvl. No morale booster, but instead it is an obstruction to my studying process, prelims just made studying less fruitful and thus removes any motivations that I could have haboured. I can't take it anymore. But I guess I have to just persevere. Others have put in the hard work. Albeit no guarantee of results, but at least they tried. I felt that I have not put in enough hard work, and hence this 32 days shall be time for repentance.

I have officially never passed math exams in AJC...

Yesterday

2010-09-10T21:08:00.002+08:00

Yesterday was a yuan-yang day. Just like coffee mixed with tea, its happiness blended with sadness.

In the morning, I went back to the place where I dread. It was overall a unpleasant experience I guess. I always regret not being able to say the necessary things at the most important timing (I mean the things didn't appear in my mind at that point in time), and yet all the points suddenly flash in my mind after the whole thing has ended. At least I took back something from that whole incident, which is to be more confident.

Begone sad thing. Now here comes the happy part of yesterday. Yesterday night, Aaron, Darren, Hong tian, Shuen, Shi hong and yingshiang celebrated my birthday in advance. Haha was very happy that they treated me to delifrance. Thanks guys. You made my day happy. And thanks aaron for helping me to go back to school to take a survival kit for me. Hopefully I can really survive the whole ordeal, without being suan, by someone respectable, as being like a pri 1 kid...

Goal setting for prelims

2010-09-03T23:13:00.002+08:00

Inspired by sheepden.blogspot.com, I decided to post my own prelim target.

GP - D
Chem - E
Math - E
Econs - E
Geog - D

Haha I know some of you might think its unrealistic. But well, its just some target that I hope to achieve :D Just hope that I don't get the same results as mid-years :P Especially not failing econs is my main target. Perhaps I must follow from my econs teacher's advice and not be a primary one kid to observe which one rise which one fall, and try to refine my case study answering techniques. Thanks for that timely reminder.

Wishing all best of luck in your revision, especially in this stressful period!

2010-08-21T13:08:00.002+08:00

Haha I have edited one of my past post. :D

So boring need to work hard already. Its so close to prelims.

And the best thing about prelim is that I would be just 18 years old when I am taking the exams :D Time to put aside the past sadness when I was 17...

Slow

2010-08-16T18:53:00.002+08:00

There was a time, when lz said about his teacher to us. XXXX would stone the moment someone raise a question in class, and after the stoning she would continue to teach.

There is a similarity between me and her.

We both stone when people ask us questions. I really do not wish to stone as I would very much love to help others. But... I can't help it. I feel that my thinking is way too slow and the answers to their questions doesn't seem to appear in my mind. I really feel guilty when I am not able to help other. Also, teachers would ask me questions, and I don't know how to answer on the spot. So I would just stone. I will very much wish that I am able to think fast do fast and write fast as that is necessary in order for a student to do very well in examinations.

I really don't know. I am not smart at all.

2010-08-14T00:47:00.004+08:00

Its early in the morning now at 12.48am. After countless of efforts, sometimes we just do not get what we wish and desire...Life is always as such... unfair... But... We'll get there if we just keep trying...

I wonder how are my other friends coping with their lives. Hope they are coping well :)

Keep scoring badly at chem mcq... Oh wells, maybe i must spend more time on chem le... I guess it doesn't help to be emotional during lessons... It produces negative externalities.

Another thing, i know i am not good at socialising and i am very sensitive ( in the -ve way though), like thinking that people are ignoring me and the whole feeling is just so awkward.

sorry if some parts of my blog is not coherant, its just part of my thoughts and feel. And Shihao should stop encrypting his blog posts! I wanna read!!!

2010-07-19T19:07:00.002+08:00

I hardly could find the time to blog. I start to wonder why I created a blog in the first place. Maybe its because jia jun and the rest encouraged me to blog.

I wonder who to talk to. A councellor or a shrink or my friends. However there are things which I didnt want to tell them because I do not want to trouble them. Nobody likes to hear emo stuffs as it would somewhat affect them. I guess I can't really handle myself very well. But no matter what I still have you. Blog. You have been one that was able to tolerate all my emo posts, you the one who was able to listen to my disheartened issues without complains. But I am sorry blog, I neglected you.

And of course must thank all my readers too.

Life is so fragile. I hope my godma recovers soon and smooth operation, and also best wishes to my other aunt, may she recover soon too.

Chimnology

2010-07-11T18:47:00.002+08:00

Ahh, the topic on complex numbers is really very complex. Especially all those locus on an argand diagram. HELP!!!

Post mid year exams

2010-07-03T13:11:00.003+08:00

Finally the mid year examinations are over. Phew. It left me very battered and soul-less, with nights of hard to sleep due to over anxiety. Well lesson learnt is that taking 4 H2 will kill you. :( I guess now the school's revision programs will be much more stressful... Just hope that I won't fail too badly can le.

Yesterday was my first time taking the LRT at sengkang. haha! Lol its like it has been there for so long le yet i never took before. Then i stopped at Rambia and went to Rivervale mall. Hmm the place was quite small but there's Daiso and many small food stalls. The weather was very bad with heavy rain... Plus the LRT station didnt have a shelter direct to the shopping mall. So it was very sians...

Haiz

2010-06-18T22:39:00.002+08:00

Please don't finish me off...

Show me the light out of darkness...

Time flew past...

2010-06-15T22:13:00.002+08:00

I always look forward especially to the messages from you.

However there would always be a long hiatus after a few messages, which confuses me...

What would be the correct interpretation?

But, the clock ticks by...

With less than 2 weeks left of June Holidays, how to finish studying 4 H2... Oh wells, too late to regret not dropping any subjects to H1...

The 7/30 marks keep haunting me...

I am very daunted... Daunted of mid-year CT... Daunted of the real A lvl examinations...

Monkey Boy became a bird!

2010-06-05T23:33:00.002+08:00

Today it was an extraordinary day at Somerset 313. Ahahaha got animals (human-like animals) roaming about for a minute and died off. I was one of them. A bird. Well just being a bird, i flap my wings and take off...

It was a cip thingy that i signed up for, thinking that it was a dance flash mob. Instead, during the training day, it was a surprised that we had to act like animals.

Well, the experience was fun and I still cant believe that me, being a quiet and emo boy, would do such flashy flash mob in a mall. But maybe u could believe that perhaps i am feeling too stress until my sanity snapped!

The whole purpose of the flash mob was to raise awareness of biodiversity in conjunction with the World Environment Day. With so many species being extinct every now and then, we should really do our part and try to do green things :D

2010-06-02T20:52:00.003+08:00

Hey yo its me blogging again. :D

I guess you know that now most of the jc syllabus have already been covered or finished and we are on our way to finishing A lvls. Yay.

For now its full-time combat...

More work, more tests, more pressure.

Nervous

2010-05-20T22:11:00.002+08:00

I am extremely and apocalyptically nervous and panicky nowadays. I know its hard for me to change, but I will still persevere. But each time I try to tell myself there's nothing to worry about, don't be nervous, everything's gonna be alright, it didn't work. Maybe its because of the pressure that is building inside me. Pressure from school, family issues. Everything just keep pressing down on me. This imposes negative externalities to the people around me and I feel very guilty for that. I really don't mean it.

二零零十年五月十四日晚

2010-05-14T21:53:00.003+08:00

I have always wonder whether I should be so hard on myself, or whether should I give up all the misery.

Hais, everytime I want to blog, but there seems to be a sudden mental block that prevents me from blogging. Oh wells...

cost-benefit analysis

2010-04-25T15:12:00.002+08:00

路该怎样走呢？

有时候被太多的选择惭住，无法做对的选择。。。

Sometimes cost and benefit analysis gets too complicating until its hard to make a decision.

Hais how i wish i am more decisive and don't regret my decisions...

Life is sour

2010-04-20T23:54:00.002+08:00

I decided to delete the previous post that i had posted a few hours ago. Its too negative already. From now on i shall shrive to change for the better and improve myself as a human. Time to change my mindset :D

Dont wanna emo!

2010-04-19T19:59:00.002+08:00

I guess perhaps i am born that way. The nervous and timid character of mine is really very hateful. It seems as though i cant do anything right. Hais maybe things will work out by itself soon...

Haunted by the past...

PW Result Release

2010-04-16T22:03:00.002+08:00

Haha, today was the release of the pw results. Finally, after a year of hard work last year, we are finally knowing the outcomes of our hardwork. However, though some may not have scored their desired grades, but i think we should be happy yet feeling nostalgic that the long nights of editing WR, and rehearsing for OP days are over.

Sometimes, people are too perfectionist, they want A s. I mean who doesn't want perfect scores. But i think we shouldnt be too overly obsessed with results. Life isnt only about results. I think we should be more accepting of whatever the outcome is, only then can we feel more happier. :D Though I have scored a B, but i think i must learn to be more accepting of my results and look forward.

You might see that I could type all these out, but i dont neccessaily practise what i say. haha!

Meanwhile, I think i am having writer's block. Sometimes, i cant really bring myself to blog. Moreover, the noise level is rising i guess. Hope i can find that long wanted serenity in my life...

Luck

2010-04-11T21:03:00.001+08:00

Where are you good luck?

I need you!

Emo

2010-04-01T22:22:00.004+08:00

Given free choice many of us will not choose to be emo and sad.

Given free choice many of us will not want to post emo blog posts.

Given free choice many of us will be quite affected when viewing emo blog posts.

But why there are still emo posts?

I guess blog is a good place for us to vent our frustration, our thoughts and feelings. Though it is unpleasant to keep blogging about emo posts, I can't help but be emo. Perhaps it is due to the insurmountable stress that we face each day in school, work, family and how many of us are trying to live up to the society's expectations (the norm expectation of doing well in school and getting a good job in the future)

Often, I wish to speak out my ideas, my true feelings, but somehow i feel restricted. I can't seem to coordinate what i am thinking and translate them into words. That might just be the reason why i am introverted, or was it because i am introverted which led to my inability to express myself well. Like i actually want to say so much to my friends around me and trying to help them with their problems, but when i can't, i would feel very helpless. I think its just my character, something which i very much want to change. I want to change my timidness, pessimism, inactiveness, kanchiongness and being too affected by my environment. Those negative personalities are just affecting me too badly. I feel like i am going insane soon.

However, i know that might never happen as leopards will never change its spots, (ps i am not saying i am a leopard, but just quoting that saying only) character is hard to changed. So i guess there's isnt a choice, maybe i just need to be more accepting of my own weakness and strengths.

Life goes on. (hmm, i find myself using this for alot of times) I just need to accept the fact that i think too much, and i need to let go of all these burden. Yea, and i put too much pressure on myself to perform well, even though i may not have a proper goal in life. Be it academically or physically. Maybe i am just too impatient, i just wanna do well physically for my napfa for instance, because i really dont want to be laughed at, or to be ridiculed at. However, i cant. My body just not conditioned to pass. But i cant seem to be able to wait for the time because i dont know how to face other ppls and myself for my imbecile. hais.

Sometimes i think i really am too negative already, i really need to let go of things, and lower my own expectations of myself. Oh, i really hope there would be miracles...

To all my friends out there, must remember to cheer up and see the happier side of life. Life is a misery, if you are still stuck to the past sad memories. Must be forward looking and see the bright future ahead :D

E-learning days

2010-03-29T21:52:00.002+08:00

Haha today was the start of our sch's e-learning. It was a great start because i didnt have to wake up so early today. Hehe. But after that it was quite sian. Have alot of topics to study by ourselves. Take for instance, we need to learn two topics for econs by ourselves. The notes is like super thick. Not forgetting the rest of the subjects too.

Although I find the freedom to self study very welcoming, there are still a lot of work to be done. Well, i guess nothing is that easy in jc.

Being at home has its disadvantages. Like sometimes i tend to think alot during the wholeday, which was quite emo i must say... It has been rather chaotic in my mind nowadays. Though i kept saying that i must stop emo, but those negative thoughts just seemed to throng through my mind without reins.

Well, life goes on... Sadly... Lonely...

Future

2010-03-24T18:23:00.002+08:00

Worried about the future.

The visions of the "future" comes into my mind. But no, I am not a psychic or clairvoyant. The "future" refers to many of the worries that i have inside my mind before an actual event actually happens. Its very tiresome to carry these burden, i wish i can stop worrying about things. But these worries still keep on haunting me.

I realise that life would not be enjoyable if we are unable to cast aside our worries and fear. Let go ba...

The end of holiday is nearing

2010-03-19T19:38:00.002+08:00

The March Holiday is end. Its only a short breather and actually a transition state to more challenging months ahead. In fact I didnt feel that this is a holiday with so big pile of homework. I am sure many share the same sentiment.

But i am glad I haven been insane yet. :D

A pity that I didnt accomplish much. Oh nos... Now i just aim to complete as much homework as possible :P

Last night went to Ebisboshi Shotengai. The food was okay. The coolest thing was that they used a sensor thingy. Then we just need to tap the "pen" on the menu to scan what we want. Cool. Very productive. Dont need waiter to come take orders. haha.

Change

2010-03-12T21:52:00.002+08:00

My wish of a holiday has came true. Its finally the march holidays. But why am I still filled with sadness?

Is it really work related, school related or just being overly sensitive and thinking too much. I dont know.

It seems like when I am blogging negatively, it just makes it worse... Perhaps I am really at the brink of being insane soon. I really wish for a time when I can change and transform. Its really hard carrying so many mental burdens...

Cantonese

2010-03-03T19:20:00.002+08:00

Hei mong dai ka fai loke. :D

Ngor ho kip sum :( ahahah

haha i also dont know whether am i typing it correctly lol!. ahahaha.

Fear

2010-02-27T19:38:00.002+08:00

There is this fear in my heart.

Fear that I would fail my tests and exams. All due to the failure results of my math tests.

Fear that I would never pass my napfa. I didn't seem to improve my jumping and pullups, I feel so despaired and helpless.

Fear that no one will love me. All those years in cat high has made me cut off contacts with girls for too long...

However, things can be reversed! I believe that as long I keep pushing on, these fears may become unfounded (hopefully) hais.

As the days go by

2010-02-24T22:18:00.002+08:00

Everytime I look at them, I feel just so weak, so panic.

I wonder whats in my brain and body that is making me so worried and panicky. How I wish one day I could just be a normal guy, who trust myself and believe in myself.

One day... I shall change...

One month

2010-02-21T17:33:00.002+08:00

Just now went for my niece's one month celebration.

Shes quite cute with two big eyes and they are very observant, shifting here and there to look at you. : )

And shes not the typical baby, she did not cry when people carry her. ahahah

Well, i guess its off to do more homework... : (

CNY

2010-02-14T23:14:00.003+08:00

CNY was supposed to be a very happy occasion for us. However, an accidental mistake had ruined the whole mood...

Be it accidental or what, I still feel alittle unlucky. With family members quarreling on the first day of cny, things flying around. But this isn't the first time. I could still rmb the past years whereby these quarrelings happens. (shoutings) Being superstitious, during the first day of new year, we shouldnt quarrel or be sad, because it may affect us for the rest of the year.

Oh wells, what has happen, has happened. No use lingering on on it. I think I really need a dose of optimism and happy-go-lucky.

On the other hand, I am very happy to receive many hongbaos. YAY.

Hope everyone has enjoyed their first day of chinese new year, and i wish everyone a happy, prosperous and healthy tiger year.

祝大家虎年快乐!

Chinese new Year

2010-02-13T14:14:00.003+08:00

Chinese new year is just tmr. I feel excited about the hongbaos that we will be getting hehe.

However its alittle gloomy as i read the zodiac predictions. It doesnt seems to be good for monkey. But oh wells. We just have to hope and wish for the best :D.

Tonight is a significant night, where most people gather together in their families to eat the reunion dinner. I always enjoy the reunion dinner its because we will get to eat food that are more extraordinary as compared to usual days. HAHA. But i really hope it would be more peaceful and harmonious, because for many years, during CNY, my family would quarrel with each other. Making the atmosphere so awkward.

Tomorrow will be a good day : D

Happy Chinese New Year to everyone :P May everyone be blessed with good health, prosperity, good results, success, smoothness in life, many gui ren come to our help and HAPPINESS!

Mis-tery

2010-02-09T20:03:00.002+08:00

Surely, my life is such as mis-tery. ( Misery + Mystery )

Always wondering why fear is so overwhelming? Why worries are constantly running through my mind. Relaxation is the last thing on my mind. I dont understand...

How I wish I am free from all these mental obstacles...

But wish is often opposite of reality...

Everything doesnt seem to go smoothly...

Well, life is really short. Before its wasted, i guess i really need to do something meaningful...

Some Day, I will , yet again, be happy... Till then... Its enduring the downs of life...

Time for miracle

2010-01-05T17:06:00.001+08:00

Time for miracles.

Haha. No. Not the song.

Life is just too pressurising. Each time the clock ticks, more worries come into my mind. Oh. It's really time for miracles.

Emptiness

2010-01-04T21:17:00.002+08:00

Emptiness

Thats the feeling I get everyday. Somethings are perceived to be attached to us, but are seen being drifted away. Some people whom we thought were friends, changed so much that we couldn't click anymore. Disappointment just keeps coming.

Why do everything seem so bleak, so dark?

Perhaps out of these emptiness and voidness, there is essence of light. Hope. There isn't forever enmity, nor there is forever friendship. This world is ever changing. If we believe in changing adversity to strength, we can do it! Nothing is for certain in the future. As time flies by, people grow mature. Mature to handle our thoughts and feelings, to persevere in tough times, and also to handle difficult situation.

Doing repetitions of work, makes us feel numb towards innovation and wisdom. Being busy makes us feel numb to the things around us. Maybe this is also emptiness.

I need a little light. Could you light my life path, and show me out of this abyss...

Last post of the year

2009-12-31T18:32:00.002+08:00

I am sure many people would be blogging about their last post of the year, as we say goodbye to year 2009 on this new year's eve.

This year had been very hectic and stressful. With friendship problems, studies stresses and also family quarrels. However I think its no use lingering on to all those sadness.

Lets welcome 2010!!!!

A bright new year which brings new hope.

Let us start our resolutions for this new year.

My main resolution would be to score well for A' lvl. Lol. Common wish for students.

And many more. Like hoping to be more optimistic and stop thinking too much.

Haha set ur resolutions too!

Now i shall be going. Before i go, i would like to wish everyone a Happy new year!!! With great successes in 2010!!!!

Christmas

2009-12-24T23:06:00.002+08:00

It's yet another Christmas.

Time really flies so quickly. After Christmas would mean a new year.

This is the first Christmas which I have prepared more than one present. Perhaps the first step in trying to celebrate this festival. Normally, this would usually be another ordinary day for me. With only one present from my cousin and lunch at her house. Thats it. lol.

Perhaps i am just being emo, and anti social. Perhaps i just don't feel comfortable in christmas parties.

But anyway, i just have to be more optimistic and enjoy myself during this day. YAY.

I wish all my readers ( I wonder whether is there really anyone reading my blog), friends and family, a merry christmas :D

Holiday

2009-12-14T22:47:00.002+08:00

Haha its 14 december le.

Lots of homework/tutorials and tests not done/revised...

Two Sci Projects...

Oh well thats jc holidays :D Looks like I have to start doing alittle bit by bit :P

Throughout this holiday, I also had done more meaningful things, such as stopped being a couch potato and went to park to jog and exercised "quite regularly" :D ( At least I am not as lazy as last time, albeit now still alittle lazy :D ) But my fitness targets are still not met. I still feel loser-ish about my fitness condition. :(

Went to Chek Jawa in Pulau Ubin yesterday and saw many greenary and the sea breeze was such a joy. On the boat ride back home, the sea was a little choppy, and the water splashed inside the boat occationally. Of course, being the unlucky one :D, I had seawater splashing onto me. After that I realised that small grains of salt residues appeared on my arms. Haha that was cool. Overall it was enjoyable and we should thank heaven for not raining :D

And of course, I wont forget the outings that I had with my best friends. They were fun and its good to meet up sometimes as it somehow brings back the memories of the good old days, and how I wish time never flies :P. We watched two movies, one was mulan and the other was new moon. Unfortunately, one of my best friend (JJ) fell ill after our movie marathon and is now still currently sick. May Buddha bless him and wish him a speedy recovery.

I hope for a more fulfilling holiday ahead :D ( Christmas is coming soon:P )

Sayonara, time for me to start my hw :(

Blue Life

2009-12-10T22:11:00.002+08:00

Life has been rather blue for me. Everything have been so hectic; so falling apart. From failed outing plans to failed expectations. Hmm and the list goes on. However I guess I would not like to rant about all my failures and stuffs, because ranting is "sian" to read in a blog. So well I just hope life would be more smooth sailing and perhaps grow wiser to handle those adversities. :D

Life

2009-11-21T19:16:00.002+08:00

Hmm... Everynow and then, the same question pop out into my mind, : " What is the purpose of my life?"

Throughout our journey of our lives we usually face many difficulties and failures. These failures make us feel depressed, and feel that our existance in this world is insignificant. Perhaps they could be family problems, BGR, academic failures, and the list goes on depending on individuals.

To me, my failure would dominantly be the failure to communicate with people. Sometimes I don't know how to communicate with my classmates and friends, saying the wrong things at the wrong time, offending them.

Moreover, in a competitive society, where people doesn't want to lose out and afraid to lose to other people (kiasu). People are constantly fighting for higher positions and good academic success. I am not saying that it is a bad thing, but what I am trying to drive accross would be the stress of competition. Don't you find it tiring to compete with fellow classmates and coworkers? Yeah, I do. More so, when we lose to other people, we may either tend to compete even more, or just give up and feel that life is unfair.

Hais, I guess I am just thinking too much and providing a very pessimistic view... Losing out to others and being constantly criticised for my mistakes would just make me feel like a failure in life...

All I can do now is perhaps pray for a better life...

Post Promo Period

2009-10-15T22:03:00.002+08:00

I thought that after promos, I already have overcame the difficulty and the hardwork of mugging and worrying. However the promos was just a checkpoint... There is one more thing that is more challenging which is PW. Everyday we have been rushing out reports, doing out the slides. Its not exactly the kind of feelings that we are supposed to feel after a major examination. All the Stress are back : worrying, thinking too much and fear, especially when our teacher said that we were in high risk of failing. The pressure is just too intense.

Life is full of checkpoints that we have to overcome...

However, one thing that is really very complicating would be human relationships. Be it friendship, kinship, colleague-ship, BGR. Its all very complicating and cause a lot of sadness for us. I dont really know what to blog anymore. But i just hope that we should try not to let all these problems bother us and be happy and try to solve the problems.

Althought the fear of oral presentation, fear of pw overall and fear of getting back results is bothering me currently, but i guess i just have to cling onto hope and live on and be optimistic. After all, being optimistic is a good thing. If you are optimistic, the people around us might just be influenced and dont feel so emo about the future.

i guess its time for me to go. Ah dreadful pw... But before i go, i just hope the people around me would be more optimistic and stay happy and dont worry unduly about results :D

Life

2009-08-30T17:11:00.002+08:00

What is the true meaning of life?

Is it about politics? Putting people down? Or is it all about competing with one and other?

Sometimes life just does not go as smoothly as we want.

Oh wells. I am just sick and tired...

Comfort Zone

2009-07-24T18:56:00.002+08:00

After yesterday's Chinese listening compre, I learnt something new - which is to step out of my comfort zone.

I guess my horizons are still very narrow, with many mental blockages.

Moreover, due to my inability to step out of my comfort zone and get down to training, i dragged the class's today PE lesson. Sorry guys. :( haha thx alot for your help, Darren and aaron and everyone else :P)

Haha, i guess i have to be off to do pw and other projects and homework le. . .

But, before that, I would like to apologise to one person.

"I am so sorry for disturbing you and for bringing you many worries. If you are here reading my blog, i would just wanna say that i am really sorry. Please forgive my childishness. If you do not like it, i guess i will not disturb you anymore."

BYE :D

Abyss of Studying

2009-06-25T17:43:00.002+08:00

Studying is a long and tiresome journey that all of us have to undertake. Some may find it easy, some may find it hard. To me, i believe studying helps to empower our minds, preventing it from being rusty.

However in reality, i find it boring... haha.

Good luck to those who are having their common tests next week :D

" Its never too late to start studying. As long as the tests have not begun, there is still hope!"

A Long week

2009-06-15T03:00:00.003+08:00

As the saying goes, "time flies". How true. The second week of the school holiday is gone.

The second week was long and sad. It was really upsetting. There were two particular incident that i would like to blog about. On 9th june 2009, It was someone's birthday, "ya Happy birthday!", and i received a call from that someone to meet him at lavender MRT at 1pm "or" 2pm. I didnt know and i went at 1 pm. He told me he was at The Army's Market. And so i navigated my way to the road near the market. Then i called him to ask him where is he at, he said he was walking back to lavender MRT... And so i was there sweating profusely... I told myself nvm, i will just make my way back to Lavender MRT. By the time i reached there it was 2pm, i was told to wait inside the ICA building. Haha. And soon he came... I wished him a happy birthday and passed him a present... It was then i found out that he was selling some donation tickets at $10 each. And i bought one from him. He bought me a can of green tea. Oh WOW... This isnt the main part yet.

The best part was that he told me to have lunch with him on the day before. And now, he told me he had eaten. I was so upset. I went to the nearby hawker centre to eat by MYSELF. So after lunch, i went back to see him. He was there selling the tickets. I talked to him, and of course he said a little things, and there he was selling the tickets and to the point of ignoring me. I sat down at the bus stop. Soon ryan called me. Alas, somebody to talk to. And what was he doing? still selling tickets, oblivious to my presence. WHAT WAS THAT! I came all the way to see him, of course i wanted to celebrate his birthday with him la. But he treat me in this way - making me walk around, making me eat alone, making me sad. Ya thats all i got to say. I ain't sure of our friendship anymore. He should have just told me he wun be freee and we can celebrate on the other days... And NOT treating me like a dog... OH WOW, Brothers indeed... At the end, i took a long bus ride home, with many train of thoughts thronging through my dense mind... I felt that my mind is blocked, why am i so stupid to keep on trusting the very friend that keeps on disappointing me.

The next incident came on the wee hours of Sunday... I was about to sleep. Suddenly, a loud familiar voice hollered. I couldn't fall asleep. In fact, sleep was not within my reach. The voice just kept on ranting about the same old stuffs, which i was super sensitive to. Soon, it came to a breaking point when i couldnt take it. I took my handphone, i slammed open the room door and the main door and i walked out. The main few words that i said was " SHUT UP!" I just couldnt take it anymore. It has been many years. Since i was young. However i didnt left house long. I just went to walk around the staircase landing... Just feeling confused. I didnt know what to do. Then came my mum, who walked over and managed to pacify me to go back. I really didnt want to go back. I felt like immediately shifting out of the house. But, its impossible.

I know many of you would say i am foolish, why did i do that? You know what? I also didnt know why... Its just the feeling of wanting to leave the horrendous home of mine. I couldnt take it anymore. I feel very sad. Perhaps its basic human instinct, leaving at first sight of danger. Oh wow, here am i being sad, but the person who caused all these troubles wouldn feel much...

From this two incident, i learnt that i am too soft - Both mind and heart. Perhaps i need more toughening up, or just the heart of forgiveness. I dont know. I just need someone to counsel me. But i dont knw who. My closest friends were there for me. Thanks you! But still, there is just this psychological barrier that i have inside me... Will u help me?

Gone with the sad things, there were happy times too! On Sat, i went to watch "Drag me to hell" with the gang and it was an exciting time that we had! lol. It was both scary and funny at the same time! HAHA shant say more. Dont wanna be spoiler. Bleah!

Anyway its rather late le, i think i go to sleep le. Bye. Hope everyone enjoy their holidays!

Paragon of failure

2009-05-31T12:21:00.003+08:00

Hello readers,

It has been a long time since i blog. For this i apologise. It has been a hectic jc life inundated with homework, tests etc. Generally they are not well done, and i have experience a large amount of failures and criticism... Be it academically or physically, i have been screwing up everything. I wonder how are my other friends doing. Hopefully they are much better off than me. I guess i am just having difficulties in adapting to the environment.

Also, i have many regrets. I have caused so much hurt to the others around me. I am really sorry.

But anyway now its my holidays liao. Time for me to rest "abit". Looking forward to outings and stuffs. haha.

During the school term i have also had some chance to visit some old friends. Haha, for instance during the science fair at njc. Met ryan and mok and hongzhi.

Heres some photos :
Me, ryan and shihao

Oh well... Time really flies. Really miss the times when we were still in cat high. haha.

Good luck to those taking the O lvl chinese exam this monday. Jiayous!

Sadness???

2009-03-21T11:59:00.002+08:00

Sadness is probably what everyone have felt before in their lives. For some, they never recover from the sadness and live in very arduous living conditions. In this tepid, unpredictable world, we all experience many ups and downs.

At many times, we have to make many decisions and choices. However, one wrong decision made, might render us regrettable. haiz.... I dont feel any need for me to blog, but for all those who are sad and depressed now, lets just try to cheer up and think of happy things. ^^

Stress

2009-03-14T15:02:00.003+08:00

Many people are feeling very stress of jc life. Perhaps its because A levels is very rigorous...

haha i am also a victim... Inundated with so much tutorials, and so much content to study.

And ya. Dreams can turn to reality if you work hard to achieve it!

JC Life

2009-02-22T10:47:00.002+08:00

Hi there :D

It has been a long time since i blogged. My blog is somewhat semi-dead. But dont worry i will still try to blog whenever i can.

The forth week of jc is already starting and I still have not get a cca :( Well, because there are too many selection trials and interviews. So stringent >.< Perhaps on next Wednesday I will be confirmed to join Project Eureka, yay! haha. At least there's something interesting for me to do rather than remain cca-less and live the whole two years JC life of boredom.

There's still one thing that I have not gotten used to, that is the lecture-tutorial system in jc. I still miss the secondary school system of teaching. :(

Actually the most sad thing is that our OG was splitted. . .

Haha, now I am in PDG 28/09.

happy valentines Day

2009-02-14T19:15:00.001+08:00

Happy Valentines Day to all :D

Its the end of the orientation week. Lol, whole week of games, dances and interaction with new classmates. The experience was good especially since my alliance won. WOOOO! GO AQUILA! :D

Anyway my classmates are all very nice. OG 28/09 JIAYOU!

Non Mihi Solum!

Haha.

Aftermath of one week in ajc

2009-02-07T11:30:00.002+08:00

The first week in ajc was fine. The good thing was that we were dismissed at around 1pm almost everyday. :P However when proper lessons start, i dont think we are going to be dismissed that early XD

The most great thing about the school is that there are study tables almost everywhere! So, its a good place to study.

Hehe, feeling happy that i got my subject combination that i want : H2 Chem, Maths, Economics and Geography. I got posted to OG 28/09, who going to the same group as me? :P

However the most disappointing part was that air rifle didnt want alot of people, due to overwhelming response...

Okay thats it, i guess i will settle down by next week, when my orientation begins :P

Posting Results

2009-01-30T13:43:00.004+08:00

On this day, the JAE 2009 results are released. I have received an sms at 06.54 am, saying that I am posted to Anderson Junior College, Science. I wonder whether is it a boon or a bane...

It can be said as a bane. Firstly, none or few of my closest friends are going to the same jc as me. so I would be rather lost and lonely.

Secondly, I have heard many negative comments about this jc. However, which jcs doesn't have shortcomings? I believe that we must see it for ourselves instead of believing in groundless hearsay.

It can also be said as a boon. The first good thing about this jc is that it is very near to my house :P, within about 4 bus stops away from my house, so its considerably accessible.

Secondly, I have heard about its mugging environment. I think it will be wonderful for muggers like me XD. Although many would say that the jc life would suck, but it totally depends on individuals and their perspectives. If you find that the jc life is not desirable, we should try to improve on the environment and add spices to the life, I truly believe that as humans, we have certain powers to control our environment and dont allow the environment to control us.

My main concern now is regarding the subject combination. What if I chose a subject combination that i would regret for life? So this is also very important. Oh wells, I still have not really decided on the subjects that i want to take, so i shan't talk more about this.

Alas, I have a school now. At least better than remaining schoolless :D

Here's wishing all my readers good luck in your new schools and in your effort to appeal for better schools. :P

Life

2009-01-20T15:23:00.002+08:00

In life, there are many things and people that we always seem to overlook, neglect. However when these things and people are gone, you start to realise the importance of treating them well and cherishing their prescence.

Mistakes. Just one mistake will make us lose the people and things that we have. There's no turning back. Once something is lost, you can never get it back in their original state.

For me, I have made the worst mistake and lost my best friend. I was really very bad. I am just a reprobate. Sometimes I just wished that i have the time machine and reverse the flow of time so that I would not make the same mistake again. However with current technology, it seems a little not possible. I just hope that best friend of mine would just forgive me. I know its hard for him to forgive me for what I have said to him, but i sincerely hope that day would come.

JOSHUA TIMOTHY ONG JUN JIE, I AM SORRY :(

At many times, it seems that i am not a very good friend. Perhaps i should just become a loner. However life is really complicated. I really dont know what i should do. There are many things that do not turn out the way that they are supposed to.

Lesson learnt : Treasure the people around you before they are gone.

Okay, lets change topic. Chinese New year is coming soon. Let us celebrate. However do remember that as we celebrate, we should try to cut down on the amount of snacks that we eat. They are unhealthy :) especially peanuts, they are said to cause pimples =P

Hongbaos are actually the highlight of chinese new year. Hehe

I wish all my readers a happy Chinese Niu year :P

Haha. Lastly, its very important that we know how to cut down on electricity usage, so heres one useful link : http://www.e2singapore.gov.sg/energy-saving-tips.html

Well i guess thats all~ Bye~

The last moment

2009-01-16T20:58:00.002+08:00

Why do people only learn how to appreciate things when they are almost going to over. The last moment. Its always hard to say goodbye. From the time I officially left catholic High, the time when i left the workplace, the time when i left the realms of studies.

Its always the last moment that is the most significant. This is because people only remember the results, but neglect about the process.

Sometimes its really sad to part with your friends, with your soul mates, but there is only one way to succeed which is not too involve too much feelings in the things that we do. However it is really an uphill task for me.

To me, I take many things to my heart. Its really very arduous to carry all these emotional burdens. But i just cannot seem to alleviate the heaviness of the burdens. Its time that i start to let go.

However i am really thankful for the people i meet everyday.

Remember, victory will be yours if you know the wind direction...

Results

2009-01-13T00:02:00.002+08:00

Sometimes i really wonder if results are really everything. Many people celebrating gleefully, some grief in sorrow after receiving their results. It seems like many people love to compare results and compete to see who did better. Perhaps its just human instinct, its one man for himself.

Now come to talk about my own result. Wow, it was a relief to get a single digit L1R5. But I really felt that i disappointed my geography teacher. Oh wells. Its all in the past. I shall be forward looking, so you guys also should be forward looking and stop dwelling about the past.

After getting the results, the most dreadful thing to do is to choose the school. Its really a headache and we dont know which is the best for us. So many thinking to do.

I think the more important thing is to have your own clique from secondary school to join the same tertiary institution as us so that we would not be lonely and bored.

Well i guess thats all. I am off ~~~ bye

The day before the Judgement day

2009-01-11T23:23:00.004+08:00

Before I start to blog, I would like to wish everyone good luck during the o levels result release tomorrow.

Ok. Today was a rather long day. Met jj at J8 at 11 am and we watched the Red cliff 2 at 11.30am. It was a rather inspirational show, in the sense that it taught me the importance of friendship and alliance. If without the alliance, Zhou yu would not be able to defeat CaoCao.

I was reminded of the chopstick story. One pair of chopstick by itself would break very easily. However when a group of chopsticks come together, it will become stronger. In our real life, we often need to cooperate with our friends and other people in order to become stronger and achieve a common goal. Speaking about friends helping each other, I am touched by the fact that my friends are very willing to help me.

After finish watching the movie, we met James and together we went to Marina Square to meet Albert. Sorry albert for being super late. We didnt know that the movie was so long. Then we went to sing kbox. Hehe, it was my first time and it was fun. Here's a photo (sorry for the lousy quality) :

James,Xiaostorm,Albert :)

Haha thanks for the wonderful day. Anyway after albert and james left, joshua came. Erm well, the only thing I can say is that he was a little playful.

Soon after 7 pm, we went to play pool. Hehe, Joshua very accurate, jj pro.

Then at 8 pm, we walked towards the mrt station and we parted. Left with joshua and me. And we went to raffles City to eat mos burger. haha. He was such a joker... Kept on pulling my straw and breaking my straw heads. We had to request for about 4 more straws... Rather mature...

Hehe then we went to amk and he went to look for his joey baby... While i went to get a hair cut :D And the day ends.

Bye~

Robust Character

2009-01-06T18:14:00.007+08:00

Albeit the fact that my life is rather mundane and there's nothing much interesting to blog about, but I still would like to type down my thoughts and feelings and personal philosophy.

Today, I would like to talk about robust character. ( haha its part of my school's motto :D )

What is robust character? It is the kind of character that we all wish to have. Imagine if your loved one broke up with you, if you have a robust character, you would remain strong and continue to move on. However if one does not have a robust character, he or she will remain in their own abyss of sadness and desolation because they 想不开 and let their overwhelming emotions seize their sanity.

Having a robust character also means that you will stick strongly to your own principles and rules and will not falter to adverse influences. For instance, when a person criticizes you, you would not take it to your heart or be influenced by it. This is robust character.

Normally when one has a robust character, he or she will also have high level of perseverance and resilience, which is vital and key to our success.

Without a robust character, we would be like 温室里的小花, requiring utmost care and love from others, devoid of independence.

Guys so now i would like to advise you to train yourselves to be people of robust character. With a robust character you all will be able to deal with problems rationally and logically.

I hope that all of us would be able to deal with problems with a robust character and not avoid them.

所谓 “ 吃得苦中苦，方为人上人 ” ，只要我们有坚韧的个性，能吃苦，必能海阔天空，展翅飞翔！

Thats all for today. I have to stop typing now. Thanks for reading :)

Fear of the future

2009-01-04T13:19:00.002+08:00

Many of us fear of the future. Fear of the unknown and uncertainty. How many of us can confidently say that we have conquered our fears completely? Well i guess many of us would choose to hide our fears and forget about it. Selective memory.

As the o level results are going to be released soon, many of us are getting more and more nervous and worry about our results. There are also some who choose to avoid the fact and continue to be engrossed in their games and holiday mood.

However if we had tried our best and studied very hard for our o levels, i believe theres not a need to be overly worried. As we know, no matter how much we worry, our results would not change.

Fears are imminent our lives. It is how we deal with our fears and move on.

Yesterday i received a call from a friend. He kept saying he was very scared of the results. But as the saying goes :" 前日种下的果，今日就会开花结果 ". If we know that we have put in our utmost best efforts for our o levels, i dont think we need to worry much about the results.

I am also very afraid of the results. But theres nothing we can do now to change our results...

Now there are a few ways to overcome our fears.

Face to your fears. Avoiding it will make it worse. The more you face it, the more you will feel that your fears are unfounded.
Create positive and optimistic thoughts to overcome your fears.
Find a hobby or do things that you enjoy. By having fun, you will start to worry less and your fears will gradually fade away.
Talk to someone that you trust. By saying out your fears to that person, that person would be able to give you advices and comfort that you need.

All these are just purely my own thoughts and feelings. Follow at your own risk.

Okay i think i gotta go. I wish everyone good luck and get their best results possible during the o levels results release. I hope that all the people schooling now will jiayou and get good results too :D

Happy New Year

2009-01-03T19:40:00.002+08:00

First and foremost, I would like to wish all my readers a very happy new year. :D

Its the beginning of 2009, a nice, new chapter of our lives. Many of us like to have new year resolutions. But how many of us have actually keep to them throughout the year?

For me, I guess the best way is to take one step at a time to complete my goals and targets for this year.

My job at the cc was rather smooth, although at times its rather mundane.

Next, i have found out that i have many nice friends :D

During this new year, i hope to get into my desired junior college and meet yet another group of nice peoples there.

After much self reflection, i wonder whether should i even continue to blog. . . I just feel that my blog is rather dull with no sort of creativity and nice things.

Perhaps it would be better if i have better topics to talk about...

Anyway with the advent of the new year, I have feel rather concerned about those good friends which i have not seen for ages and wondered about how are they. Well i just hope that they will still remember me.

As for the worsening of the economy, i wish that lesser people will be retrenched and find wise methods to manage their finances.

Well. I guess a happy new year would only be happy when people starts to loosen their souls and forgive and forget. Be simple. Sometimes thinking too much is bad for your physical and emotional health. I am a living negative example :-S

Okay. Its time for me to go.

Welcoming the NEW YEAR

2008-12-29T12:35:00.002+08:00

The new year is approaching in like 3 days' time. Sometimes its really a big regret that time flies so fast. When theres so goals you did not achieve within this year and you really want the time to go slower so that you can complete your goals. However time does not wait for anybody...

I could still vividly remember the times when we were mugging so hard for the o levels, voraciously competing with each other and trying to outdo each other. It had been a very unpleasant experience indeed. However it did made me thought of how much my friends have helped me in my studies and how we cooperate to encourage each other to work hard. Moreover i do remember the "GOOD" times i had in the chess competition.

Well experience make us grow and mature.

To me the year 2008 was a horrendous year inundated with huge workloads, extra lessons and more extra lessons. Although many of us rant about these work and hardship, but we need to notice how much effort that our teachers have put in to ensure that all of us get our desired grades. THANK YOU TEACHERS !!!

During this year, I have also found out who are my real and true friends. Anyway any friend is still better than a foe.

This year is very significant as it marks the end of my secondary school life. Well i really miss those good old days. But we have no choice. Life goes on.

As the new year 2009 arrives, i have many wishes. My first wish would be for world peace and stability. Second wish is for everyone to be happy. Third wish is for good health. And so on. But i think the most important wish is for my o levels results to be desirable :P

Before the 2008 ends, i would like to wish LIYI A VERY HAPPY BIRTHDAY :D

Haha i guess i got to go now.

Work

2008-12-19T10:42:00.002+08:00

After a long time of waiting, i have finally found a job. Its at Nee Soon South CC as a temporary constituency support officer. I will be starting work tomorrow. Well i guess the job is more towards handling counter work and admin duties.

So guys i might not update my blog as often anymore. I just hope that i will not get over exhausted from work.

I hope my other friends can also quickly get the jobs that they want.

However i doubt that work is easy at all. But dont worry i will work hard to learn from my work and gain experience. Hopefully can level up xD...

Work = Joules used / second, therefore work is definitely very tiring.

I just hope that my colleagues are all very friendly and affable, and my superiors will treat me well haha...

I think thats all. I would like to end off with a quotation.

" The more work you put in, the more results you produce. "

Holidays of No directions

2008-12-15T13:08:00.002+08:00

Hey guys :D. I have just bought a new navigator phone, so i wont get lost in the future :P. Its a nokia 6210. More importantly its the unlimited smses :P.

However i do have one regret during this holiday, which is the inability to find for a job. Hey you guys out there, if u have any opportunities remember to tell me hor :P

I am able to do administrative work, logistics, sales, counter jobs. Remember to contact me pls :D

The Game of Life

2008-12-13T14:46:00.000+08:00

Have you guys ever wondered why life is so unfair? Why other people are better off than us? Why must I be the victim of a disaster or a love catastrophe? Well everything in our lives are said to be predestined by heaven, but there are times when cause and effect will come into place.

Now, what is cause and effect? Cause is the things that we do that results in consequences ( Effect ). Sometimes the things that we accidentally do will result in bad consequences and good consequences. But frankly life isnt that simple. For instance a guy who is willing to sacrifice for his loved one, would most probably ended up in a good love life, but in the end, he was ditched and the girl went over with other guys. Well, it is really very unexpected and 无常.

So guys the moral of the story is to take life more simpler. Just follow the flow of our life and start to move on. As the saying goes, " No use crying over spilled milk ", once the milk has spilled, we should try to think of other alternatives to solve the problem and be happy again.

Life isnt only about a single incident. It is dynamic and ever changing. So if we encounter any unfortunate incidents, we should just move on and believe that happiness will come to you in other forms.

However, I sometimes view life as fair. When we lose something, we will gain other things. So Jiajun, although you have lost her, but you have gain a best friend in me :P so cheer up and move on. I know that it will be difficult for you to move on and forget about those uncouth words, but looks like you just have to accept it. Why pursue someone who doesnt love you as much?

As I want to say, if we encounter any difficulties in lives and feel very helpless, dont feel pessimistic, instead we must be optimistic and enshrine ourselves with positive energy. Only then you can overcome it and find better opportunities.

I would like to give my BFF jiajun a saying, " The grass is greener on the other side. And there are many other better boats at the pier, you dont have to be sad just because one boat has sunken. "

Everyone desires for their dreams to come true. More importantly we must not be ruthless just to accomplish our missions as it might hurt the people around us. Moreover, when we are feeling sad, we can look towards our ever supporting families and friends that will always love u and care for u.

Life is cruel and tough.

But i believe that if we do good deeds, we will bear good fruits. So everyone, remember to be charitable in this christmas and everyday :D. Just know that as you are suffering, there are many other who are also suffering. We must learn the way other people overcome their sadness and achieve success.

The time is here for me to end off. Bye ~

My first outing during the school holidays...

2008-12-10T10:26:00.000+08:00

lol. Today was my first official outing with my friends since the class chalet. Perhaps i am sort of loner lol, only goes out with friends once in a blue moon. :P

Ok. The day starts when i met jj at AMK MRT at 10.30+ am. hehe then we made our way to city hall and played arcade at Suntec. Haha saw jj's cousin and his gf... Horhor must tell his mummy. =X We played until 12+ then went to meet albert.

haha ate lunch at fish & Co. haha the waiter was blur lor... we SHARED A GIANT DRINK with three straws.. OMG. lol. Albert damm nice lor, cut the stingray and share with us. HEHe

Next was bowling. GOSH. I was damn lousy lor. haha but jj and albert taught me lor. haha true BFF s.

Last stop we went to Bugis for arcade. Fun lor, especially the ball game where we have to aim at mosquitoes etc.. lol, and played some of the basketball game. Then we saw one imba guy throwing using 2 hands. damm ownage score of 1170 lor. lol

haha. All good things come to an end and so did the outing. However i believe that the happiness and euphoria lingered on in our hearts :P thanks alot JJ :P Then Albert went to Chinatown, and i and jj went to j8 and we parted.

But wait the story hasnt ended yet. At J8's taxi stand while waiting for my father, i saw jonny and richie. LOLs. The world is really small lol. Come to think of it, it has been a long time since i seen my classmates, haha kinda miss them. But dont worry, i hope the next time i meet them during the o levels results release, they would be cheering with joy. haha.

A pity someone couldnt come to the outing...

Haha. Life is always full of difficulties and sadness, but we must learn to move on. Forgive and forget. Only through liberation one can attain a happy life.

Bleah. somehow i feel that my post is like a disaster. nvm i stop typing la. Cya next time :P

First Post

2008-12-09T04:58:00.000+08:00

Hehe. This is my first blog that i have ever created. Therefore my mind is definitely in a whirl and i dont know what to talk about. However i do want to thank one person, for making this blog possible. He is none other than my BFF ( Best Friends Forever ) TAN JIA JUN :D CHEERS!!! Well he helped me to create this blog :P Thank you soooooooooooooooo much.

Hmm, suddenly due to the raining season, my brain started to have a storm and i thought about a topic to write about, which is FRIENDS!!!

Friends are part and parcel of our lives. They inspire us, motivate us, influence us and help us whenever we are in need. They are just the best group of ppls in our lives, besides our family. Its definitely a joy to know each and everyone of them.

Friends have helped us to achieve the success that we need. For instance in school, there are friends that forced you to COMPETE! with them in terms of results and in turn, you work harder just to win them. Especially ( Jun, seet and Josh ) Tsst, life is such a competition.

Friends have also add joy to your life. For example, when i was schooling in catholic high, i was called as "YOUR MOM!!!" However this was just pure harmless fun that added spice to the mundane school life. THANKS AR i hope that u all enjoyed the name callings -.- ...lol

Then came along those online friends whom i have never seen before. But they were very nice to me :P (Phoenix :P) LOL.

Haha. So to one and all, be sure to treasure your friends well and remember that harmony comes first and friends should not turn enemies just because of small problems. Haha, more importantly, must accept each other flaws and stay happy :D Remember its better to have a friend than an enemy hor. xD

Anyway, today, it is raining for the whole morning. Yawns. This weather very sian to go out :( Haha. but i still going to waterloo street to pray to guan yin for thanksgiving for protecting me and my family during my genting trip :P

Well i guess its time for me to stop typing. Bye everyone. Hope to gain your support and readership. Do remember to tag :D xDD

Hex :)

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